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Lama gila tak update... hhmm.. nanti2 aku update larr yer.. hehe

Life is full of drama...

Dear blog,

I have not made a proper serious post in a very long time, so here goes an update on everything.

I have learned that life is full of drama. No matter how much you try and avoid it, it still manages to creep up on you. This past months has quite possibly been one of my worst in my life. So many stressors that influenced this including, Ariff’s dad whom just been sent to the hospital ward because of heart attack while he was here with me enjoying his holiday. He just caught the earliest train this morning to London in order to catch the earliest flight to go back home in order to give support to his dad. What a ‘nice’ episode to end a holiday. I do hope that his dad will be restored to health from the illness. By the way, he received the news from his cousin whom did not know that he is in the UK.

I know it is a really hard time for him now. I’ve been through all these few months back when I heard news that my late mum was diagnosed with cancer and later she passed away. I was extremely down that time after I received the news. So I decided to go home to be with my family.

Life has to go on. After I came back to the UK, I have to catch up with my study and there is a lot of coursework need to pull alongside as well. Life is not easy. At the same time, I have to work extra hours in order to deal with my financial situation too. I am a grown up man now, cannot really rely on my dad for everything. Plus, not to mention the problem I had with my previous housemates. Thanks god I do have someone to share my problem and understand all the knotty life of mine and you know who you are.

Alhamdulillah, last Monday I just handed in my portfolio and that means I had done all my work for this year of study. Now I am waiting for my result to be published. I am praying and crossing my fingers that everything will go in order after all the time, effort and lack of sleep I put on my study and work. Well, at least pass the year!

In general, I do not like to share my sadness with my mates apart from my very close friends. It is probably because I do not like to show the other side of “Happy Go Lucky Azfar”. But sometimes, my facial expression cannot hide what my feeling is inside. That was why, at one point I had to tell one of my very good friend all about my problem since she said I did not look like myself.

This coming Friday, I am supposed to go to Istanbul with Ariff and Hakimi. I thought of making a surprise for him since I had already booked the ticket but have not told him yet that we are actually going to go there. I was hoping that the holiday that I am planning soon will sort of make me forget about all my problems. “Kita hanya merancang, Tuhan yang menentukan”, we can always plan, but only God that can really make it happen. It seems that I have to go there with Hakimi. I do hope that everything will goes in order with him. “Maaf larr Kimi, nampaknyer ko kena tolong batalkan tiket kawan aku tuh”.

Apart from all this drama, things are getting worst with one friend of mine ( I called him a friend since I do think that I do not have any problem with him and first time we met it seem that we can get along well ) spreading bad rumours ( gossip: to sounds more like a celebrity) about me. I just do not understand why this person sends bad rumours about me when in fact I do not have any problem with him or even his brother! Well, the rumours said that the person dislike me because I don’t like his brother! Not just that exactly, there are many things as well. Hhmm.. Let him be… if people want to hate you for no reason, let them, because obviously, they are either insecure, jealous or simply a bitch.

Insyaallah I will go to Hafiz’s house for lunch today. I am sorry that Ariff cannot come along since he had this problem. Anyhow, I will make my appearance to your place today.

Enough of my life story, I do hope that Ariff’s dad will be alleviated soon.

Me and Ariff around England.

zookeeper..

Dear blog,
I feel like I want to be a zookeeper now..

Bila 'Final Crit' Hampir Menjelma....

Inilah akibatnya... bila 'exam' dan 'final crit' datang sekali...

Meja 'study'ku...

'sofa bed' belakang meja 'study'ku...

Kotak yang bertimbun- timbun.. tak tahu bila nak kemas...
( Ariff datang .. kenalarr kemas.. dia kena tidur bilik nih.. ahahaha)

Model yang tak siap-siap untuk crit..

exam abis.. menunggu di depan.. design project..

lega rasanya hati bila exam dah abis... design project plak nak kena antar.. ariff plak nak dtg London.. nak kena amik satu hal.. ..

Exam, coursework.. bla.. bla..

Dear blog,

It's been a stressful time of the year now. Exam and several submission are just around the corner. .. Arrgghh.. God help me!!!

Back on Track...

Dear blog,

Now I am trying to get back on track. Past few weeks was a hard time for me. First, I received the news that my mum had lung cancer and it was already at the advances stage. Within a month she was warded in the hospital, she passed away on the 13th March. Now it has been more than a month she gone to see the god. Al-Fatihah for her.

Today, I went to the university. I did a bit of research on my current project. I am thinking to design a conference centre. Apart from that, I had a tutorial with Gerald. God knows how long it was.

That’s it for now I think. I shall continue doing my coursework. Ciao xxx